Wednesday, June 3, 2020

Pain is a Constant

Right side pain,
But I have a left side brain,
Right side hurts,
But my left fingers are alert,
My right limb aches, 
But my left limb takes, 
all the strain,
Half a body good,
Half a body bad,
A painless day, 
Is something I have never had,
There is nothing left to do,
And nothing feels right,
Eyes become weak,
My brain numbs things slight,
But,
The mind is still sane,
Pain is like the everyday ride on, the dreary daily train,
Yet, the vision is deep,
When I wake or I'm asleep,
On my right bed side and my left lamp light,
Can't bare it on one shoulder and no sweet  dreams on the other pillow side,
Pain on my right side, and strain on my left leg,
To live is the joy of life,and living life is the joy in pain.  

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I suffer from pinch nerves and numbness on my fingers, and back pain which peaks so much in winter, that I cannot turn my side and get up crying. I love to write and can type but my wrists and fingers hurt after a while, but I still do it. I cannot play tennis anymore, due to a tear inside my arm that if opened seeps fluid that causes swelling,I cannot grip a guitar anymore,nor confidently hold things and I m constantly afraid that I might drop them, but I live with it and it's normal, if you should meet me , you will never realize it because I choose to not be bothered by it and sulk because I know there are worse things that can and have happened to people. We have to live with pain with acceptance.